why u want escape me?

why you want to do so?
like monday 5/7/2010
i stand there..
u saw me..u show nothing to me..
-.-
when u want went up..then i was talking with someone...
then i purpose to said a sentence which is 'get used to be is enough'
translate to chinese
u will comprehend wad im trying to say
then i saw u stand there..
i smile to u..but u?
wad u do?
shows indifferent face to me...
LOL
feeling blue indeed...
that day Ms Ngan also got said...
human got 'perasaan' de ma...
and i treat u as good as i can jz bucz u're my teacher..
i should respect you...
but not faill in love with u...
when teacher haven;t said this ..i thought im falling in love with u...i thought im abnormal
actually im not..
but why you want to hurt me as you like?
i m really disappointed...
today-tuesday 6/7/2010
i comprehend that u're really trying to escape me...
haiz...
u came out from that class...and saw me standing outside the class..
and u went down and take something..I dont know about that
then when you went up..you rather go far abit alo dont want went in the classroom in front of there...
finally I comprehend..
I really comprehend...
and when they was finished their period,u came out again ><
but u atheer to smile to others instead of me..
depressed,disappointed,sad,feeling blue..
I dont know wad words to descibe my feelings again..
my eyes almost became watery,obscuring mysight and tears drop down drop by drop..
but I will not to do so..
because I know that you wont care for me at all ><
wait until we had finished our Mathematics period
i saw u was downstairs there..
i tried to walked slowly in orfer to see u once again...hope u would smile to me..
when I m going up to my father's motorcycle..
u saw me indeed..
but u pretend to smile to me..
but I know that u're not willing to do that..bcuz my father was there..
so u're pretend to smile to me..
I can see thrpugh ur smile,ur eyes..
bcuz my father was fetching me...
then u're forced to smile also..
LOL...

can you please dont treat me like that...
I m really cant control my feeling,u know?
you dont treat me as good as another students,dont concern about me
FINE..
I accept it...
as long as u happy...
but please dont show ur indifferent face to me..
u're making me confused...
perhaps u dislike me,kays...
I tried to not to meet you anytime,anywhere,as long u're over the moon...
that;s sufficient :D

U did it actually :(

原来你真的是在逃避我...
星期六那天
是丘老师代课
本来是叶老师在后面帮忙的
你又不知几时走进来
过后我隔壁的就告诉我说郑老师几时走进来的哦？
我说蛤？
我也不知道咧
过后，放学前
丘老师说要给我们听写
到时间了
老师给我们听写
然后你就走过来我们的位置
对我笑笑
我有心想：干嘛啦？
要你对我笑的时候你选择不这么做
当我不想你这么做的时候
你却做了
唉..
算吧

今天，我也以往常般的站在外面
可是今天却让我看到你~
我看到你的时候，就假装看不到咯
因为我知道就算我看着你
你也不会有反应的啦
所以我选择不看着你
过后，你就进去办公室
由于有一个女孩子一直看着我
所以我才逼不得已站去另外一边
之后我一望进去的时候
你就刚好要出来了
我看到这种情况，我就赶快转移方向
难免让你误会
之后你出来
我也假装看不到
你就弄些声音
我也不知道你是故意的还是无意的
过后我就望着你咯
你下去的当时
叫我；“晓慧”
“做么”
“你站在这里做么”
“等呐”
“蛤？！”
我本想说“等你咯”
那么久没见，想念你嘛..
其实这些都是奉承你的话罢了
只想让你对我的影响好点
可是每次我一看到你
我都说不出来...
==”
算了吧~
我只希望你对我好罢了
我别无所求

Depress Indeed...

唉..又是一篇失望~绝望的帖子

昨天我留下来到10.00点

而慧琪八点半就回了

过后我就在外面等叶老师咯

因为是她教嘛

过后郑老师就上来

我看到她

她就唉声叹气

我就笑她咯

其实我也不知道我做么会笑咯

因为感觉上她好像很不想看到我这样

过后她就进去别的课室

就去找李老师

过后我就进课室了

过后丘老师进来

我也没察觉

老师就叫我：‘晓慧’

我就看着他

他就说：“mana dia”

我就说回家了

他就问：“做么”？

我耸耸肩膀

过后丘老师就问叶老师：“没有叫她咩？”

她就说我有啊

过后叶老师就问我：“她临时决定要回家的是吗？”

我有耸耸肩

不想出卖你

其实我很想告诉老师的咯

我不要罢了

过后婷老师就过来我的位子

就以比较不爽的语气

跟我说：“自己一个人来罢了啊？”

没有叫她来啊

我就说：“有啊,可能是她家里有事吧”

过后婷老师就问我会做吗？

我就点点头

她就说：“加油啊”

我就点点头

每次都是讲同样的话的啦

过后放学了

我下到楼下的时候看到郑老师

可惜的是她没看到我

我想她看到我也不会怎样吧

我看到她在跟学生说话

那学生还祝他永远青春美丽

她也很开心

看到她那么开心

我也替她开心

过后我就从她前面走过

不晓得她有没有看到

应该没有吧~~

今天，也是与往常般一样

可是今天我是在跟一位女生聊天

你看到我，也把我当成透明的

我真的对你彻底的失望

竟然把我当透明

没关系~

第一次看不到我原谅你

可是第二次，更惨

你简直连看一眼都不要看我

真的很委屈你吗？

那好

我会尽量让你看不到我

星期一开始

我不想让你看到我

只要你开心

我就满足了~~~~~~~~~~~~ :(

你为什么对我那么冷淡？

我们的认识可说是从个笑话开始吧？
因为那时是我第一次去那间补习中心补习
那时候，我还不认识你
而那时，我看着你从课室外的镜子望进去里面
你又不够高，你的脚尖翘起来
你那种摸样真的是很好笑
你知道吗？
从那天起，我也把你当做好朋友一样地看待
你还是我笑着问我说：“为什么你一直笑？”
我不好意思的摇摇头
其实你根本不知道我在笑着你
那种滋味真的非毛笔墨所能形容
有一天，慧琪没去
你变得更加重视我，关心我
我进那间课室，你也跟着进
我才知道你原来是丘老师的助教
我从后面那班男生的口中得知原来你是郑老师
那天，慧琪没去
丘老师也变得更关心我，还问我可以吗？会做吗？
我就点点头
过后他就走了
过后，郑老师来到我的位子
问我叫什么名？
我就告诉她："晓慧"
过后她就说：哦
之后她又看到我做错了
就告诉我应该写另一个答案，而不是我写的答案
你是显得超关心我的，我真的很开心因为刚去那里补不久
就有老师那么关心我
又问我知道什么是invois 吗？
我就点点头，你就问我说是什么？
我犹豫了很久，因为我不晓得要怎么讲
所以我就偷偷的瞄了白板一眼
过后就告诉你是订单
你又跟我解释，知道我明白为止
知道又有一天，慧琪被老师叫去檫白板
我就坐在座位上
之后郑老师又问我这里谁坐？
之后我就指慧琪，代表是她坐的
她的样子好像很沮丧，伤心，失落
可是当放学的时候，你也会跟我说再见
真的很开心（*100%）
那天我剪了头发
由于还没到时间进课室，我就坐在外面
你就问我说你剪了头发啊？
我听到很好笑，过后就点点头
进课室的时候，慧琪又去檫白板
过后郑老师弄下我的头发，就问你做么去剪头发？
我就笑笑，并没回应
你又继续问:'你去哪里剪的？’
我就说我家附近
”你家在哪里？‘
Aman Puri
过后你就走了
然后每次看到我的时候
都会叫我的名字
似乎在跟我玩
有一次，你看到我就叫我
我就问你做么
过后你就说是不是叫晓慧？
我就摇头
你就说不是咩？
是慧晓吖？
我就说不是，是不知道
你似乎听不到
你就问我你是什么老师？
我就说不知道
其实我也是玩玩而已的
你就说：’蛤？‘
我记得你的名字，你竟然不知道我是什么老师？！
你真的太令我失望了
我就笑笑咯
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
然后你就说你最好给我去查清楚，不然我看到你一次就问你一次
过后我就说：郑老师，郑老师，郑老师，郑老师
说了很多次你才听到
就说GOOD
过后你就问慧琪：你咧？我是什么老师？
我就帮他回答说不知道
如果后他又在那边笑
就回答说是郑老师
郑老师就说GOOD
吓到我啊
过后你就走了
自从那次以后，你叫过我的名字两次
就不再叫了
就连星期四的account班你也不要进来
我真的很失落
而星期六呢？
你有进班
可是，每次我们放学的时候
我都看不到你
我觉得你是故意趁我们要放学的时候快快出去的咯
我都看不到你
真的很伤心
感觉上你好像在逃避我一样
我对你的不是男女间的感情
不要误会
只是老师与学生的感情


是我做错了吗？
是我伤透了你的心吗？
还是我想太多？
你好像不再关心我了
就好像今天一样
你只是对我敷衍的笑笑而已
真的伤透了我的心
所以今天的我选择不对你笑！
请原谅我的过错
我不是故意伤害你的 :(

2 months didnt update blog

im back..
im here to update blog...
here to write out all my feelings

tis 2 months..
im trying hard to study
and I have changed to another tuition centre..
just because of teacher was not teach there anymore..
I hate the teacher who teach us sejarah when I was tuition there..
gave us a paper..
asked us to read that..after that he explain the sentence which words that we dont know..
this teach method..I also know how to teach la..u give me salary la..I teach you
more easy to do that...
I hate such teacher...
and he's not leng zai at all...
LOLS...
is yong sui like hell ><
before that Ms.Ernice can make the story as interesting as she can..
but why he cant?
the reason is he is not qualify to be a teacher at all..
SUCKS INDEED.....!!!
then changed to Taman Daya's tuition centre...
many students indeed...
meet three friends that we know each other at the camp
but never talk to them...
haha..xD
there de teacher treat me as good as Ms Ernice...
hehe...
but i dont know that why they treat us so good..
especially a teacher who I dont know her before..
then she asked me that why I keep smile ? (:
LOL..
cant smile?
smile brings happiness...
haha..
and today we wrote an essay which is 'SEMANGAT PATRIOTISME'
teacher asked us to write urselves as what she teached us before..
I am quite scare of that..
because I really dont know how to write
and said that she will only gave us some points..
then we have to write urselves...
but actually was not..
she said in chinese..
then we translate ourselves into malay..
it's quite easy for me la..
but I dunno whether is it correct or not...
maybe got some mistakes..
I dont know about..
I think others use A4 paper to write the essay but me..
because I have prepared a book..so I used that book to write..
after I hand in...then teacher opened and see..
suddenly said ..... WA....!!
scary me...
she continued her sentence..neatly...
haha...first time get praised from the teacher..
thanks ...

and we took back our exam paper ad..
not satisfied with the result..but still ok la..
no subject get failed..
yeah!

here's my result:
BM:54
BI:72
BC:58
Math:42
PDG:69
PA:77
EA:58
SIVIK:64
PM:40
SCI:37
SEJ:74
I think that's all..
the most worst subject is always science..
never mind..try harder next time..
dunno why my sejarah will get such high marks..
felt shock when teacher call my name...
hope i can maintain all this marks in the MID-YEAR exam soon... (:

The 1st and 2nd week of schooling-2010

erm..
let's say the 1st week of schooling
1st week many teachers came in but didnt gave us lots of homework
because we still dont know that want use how many exercise books
then teacher not teach too much
just let us knew that which teacher teach us what subject
our class teacher teach us Ekonomi Asas (EA)
not bad la ^_^
quite nice teacher..
but the bad things was our science teacher Ng Chuan Tee(ga lat dai)
haiz..never mind la
this class was not bad la..quite nice

the 2nd week started
all became so horror...
teacher gave us lots of homeworks especially Math
but i know la
Math must do more..pratice and pratice only can improve
nowadays not same like Form 1-3
it's a big difference
3 years ago ...all objective
if dont know the answer at all..also can tembak
but now all subjective
i knew when i was Form 3
then went tuition everyday
tuition tuition and tuition
homework enough hard but BM
because I like BM
crazy one..others dislike BM but I like
haha

Big difference compare to when I was form 2

still remembered that when i was form 2
I went to the tuition centre namely-super (KIP-Kids Intelligence and Power)
that time de me was quietly..not really dare to ask teacher about something that I dont know
I also dont know the reason
now ad Form 4
I became more talkative in class
even teacher was teaching in front
but seldom la..sometimes only
teacher just ignore la..never care
Ms.Ernice likes to take me as an instance...
LOL..
I dont know why
but I can felt that she's care for me sometimes
even Ms.Wenny also ...
thanks two of u for caring me sometimes
eg:maybe Ms.Wenny could felt that my bm quite good..
then asked me to tell all the students there some vocabulary and idioms...
only 3 students were there including me(Form 4 students only la)
not whole tuition centre only 3 students la..==
I hope I can study more hard in this year=new year (2010)
ok la..that's all... :)

1st day of school reopen

1st day of reopen school ...
went to school around 6.45 in the morning
after reached school..went to find my friend
like walk at the 'black hole'
all black black de..
lol
finally i found my friend
then wait for another friend
went queue up..then teacher asked all form 4 students went to Dewan Aspirasi
queue up as last year's class..
teacher called our name by class..
I thought that I can go in Dahlia de..
because we choose that time..
thought that Kekwa got art..so I dont want ..
but teacher announced that time ..
my class was Kekwa instead of Dahlia ==
haiz..never mind la
still can same class with my friend :)
but another friend still not same class with us :(
because her science get B..so can go Dahlia class
zadao ==
that time teacher never said BM,BI,MATH,SCI must get at least B only can go that class
LOL!
then went to our class..
our class teacher was there...the LMAO one keep saying wanna change to Cempaka
Is she qualify?
NO..she's not..her science get C leh..how come can go that class?!
but finally she is succeed..
lol..like that also can..use parents to help her..
SHIT+IDIOT >.<
then our class teacher got told us..
you study at this class..you're lucky..
others want study this class also cant..
you're arranged to this class means you're qualify
dont campare with others
that's all...